Letter No 43

                                                                        Morganza Louisiana August 15^th 1864

 

            Deare Malvina

                                    It was but yesterday I wrote you a letter in answer to two I had just Received I am sory I wrote in it as I did but you ought not to start the subject in the way you did you know my Sentiments about this war as we on several ocasions last winter talked on the Subject prety freely at least on my part. how would you like it if you and old Miss Aspinall had got in to a difficulty and others with her had got you in to jail how would you like then if I woulde be their friends and Side with them. well when you intimate to me sutch language as those Scoundrels use up there against the goverment and Soldiers it touches me just as close as it would in your case I have just mentioned if it wer realy so but how could it be other wise with you you take that infernal Paper from / Wayne and your associats are oposed to the war but enough on that Subject. My deare wife why should we fall out as I have vowed to you on many ocasions I love you as I do my Life you may think probaly I am not Sincere in what I say but rather than you and I should meet to not live together in peace on account of this infernal War may it please God I may fall here in Battle before my time expires I am Sincere in what I say and God knows all things there is not a man on this Earth thinks more of his Family than I do my Respect for them is unbounded also I keep in good Company for there Sake as well as my own no man has seen me with mean women or in bad Company although I say it my selfe no other officer in this Regiment can say the same with truthe I have always saved my money and and have Stinted my Selfe to send it Home I have always remembered my wife and little ons by night and day and I have never went in to Battle but what they wer on my minde and no man can ever say but what / Sam Keller done his duty in the time of Battle probaly you think I take sutch things up to quick but I take in consideration wher it comes from your words go a good ways with me more than all others more especialy at this time of my troubale and hardships nothing is more cheering to a man in our Situation more especialy one of my disposition to know I have a loving woman one who will not forsake me even the whole worlde should do so I may do maney ugly things but rather than forsake Malvina I would at any time prefer death in its worst form as I have saide on many ocasions. I am high tempered as you well know and have said and done maney things since we have lived together that I have been sorry of and if I ever do a wrong to you it will be on account of my ugly temper and pride

 

Deare Malvina it always does me good to write to you just as I feel I will have to stop writing to go to Supper—After Super, I hope those liens may finde you well and that I will soon heare from you again /

 

Aug. 15

it is about darke I cannot see to write So I will close Oh deare wife let us forget and forgive each others misgivings I wish I had never taken any notice of that little Slur of yours for it caused me considerable of troubale say anything you please you will never receive another sutch letter from me it may be we will get to go Home before my time Expires at any rate I expect to be on my roade Home in two or three months the time will soon roll around. I get Home just in time to keepe you warm of nights in the colde weather Oh how I long for the time to take you in my arms I can imagin I can see how things look in our Room the dearest spot to me on Earth. wont we have a good time when we meet Say deare one shall it not be so I count evry day and I am glad when the Sun goes down and think one day nearer my Malvina

 

write soon again from your Sam as ever                                Samuel J Keller

            to Mrs M E Keller

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