Old Capital Washington Aug 11^th/63

 

My Dear Wife

                        Before you receive this I may be in Richmond it seemes that I been kept here all this time in close confinement simply to ask me to take the Oath allegience I cant tell what it is dont know its Requirements—but not satisfied with that the next is to sign an instrument over one foot long called a bond what is its penalty I cant tell as I never read it I informed the officer that I was willing to take the Oath (Parole) that I had allready taken but it seemes that no Virginian can bee trusted under Oath without bond that would involve him self family & probably neighbors If thare was any guarantee that I should not be interfered with I then might take it but the same unprincipal fellow who has caused my arrest can or could cause it again & then the penalty of the bond required—If I was to take one million of oaths administered by St Paul him self I could not be more true to them than I was to my Parole that I took in March 62 in bidding you adieu I now feel that I just returned from the toomb or cast my last fond & lingering look on you my fond partner of life & four sweet Babes but alass I can do no better I must leave you in the hands of a just God who will shield you from harm & provide for you. you had better send to Mr W— & have P. I disposed of to the best advantage I think you had better dispose of some of the stock however you must be the best judge—all the prisnors or nearly so are compelled to leave their all and go South against their will & wishes /

 

be careful of the children & teach them that they have a father who Loves them & trusts that soon this cruel war will be over & he may return to spend the remnant of his life in the bosome of a beloved family

 

I have been allowed to day to spend some time with my uncle he hopes to get off with me but I fear he will not I expect to leave on Tuesday though I may not uncle is going as soon as possible

 

I heard a Sermond to day the first for two years the old gentleman preached as usual is looking well & is quite well he desired me to send his love to all

 

Say to Mr^s M that I saw cos jacka he is well his losses has been heavy j H, will take the Oath and be home soon his health is better

 

Give my love to all my friends & relations dont forget the fr folks & Mrs B. also to B Simes

 

            I must now bid you farwell probably forever may

                        God bless you & my dear little children

                                    your devoted Husband

                                                                                                James S Marders

 

P S my kind friend W N

has never neglected me since I have been

here may he receive his Reward

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