Nov. 19^th 1863. And still no letter from my Court. Oh! for one line from him; one word to tell me that he is still “my Court.” that he still loves me and that he has not forgotten me, notwithstanding this long silence; Oh God! can it be that I have offended him? can it be that he is angry at me for anything? Surely not: my conscience is clear. I have done no wrong, nothing that could or would offend him. But how foolish to fancy such a thing: Surely Court is not angry at his “Mamie”; that is not the cause. And now the question arises: is he sick? I sometimes fear that my Darling is sick, and then I think if he was sick I should hear of it. But perhaps you have written and/the letter has been lost or delayed. If I only knew the reason that I do not receive a letter from you. It troubles me very much indeed I have cried untill I find that tears are of no avail. They will not bring a letter. I cannot blame you Darling. I know you would not intentionally neglect me so long. I went to Milltown yesterday in the rain to get a letter and there was not any there for me. A woman told a disinterested person (unless she be interested to make a disturbance between us) told me yesterday, when I told her how long it was since I had received a letter from you, and how anxious and troubled I was about you, that the first thing she would do, if she was in my place would be to write/to John Brown, and ask him what the reason was that you did not write to me. as if I would do the least thing willingly to displease my Court. I told her I would not do that, and that I did not think you was to blame. Mother says I must tell you that, if you want to kill her just keep from writing.

Do write soon my Darling Court; Oh, if you knew how it troubles your “Mamie” who loves you so much and so well. Dear Dear Court how I wish I could hear from you. It seems so long most three weeks. But I hope to hear from you very soon and ‘till then good by my Darling and remember “Mamie” loves you as well as ever.

                                                                                                            Mary