Louisville Nov 21^st /66

 

            Adjutant N. Wheeller

                                    Friend or can I call you that now but you told me if I ever wanted any thing that you would be a friend to me are you still one Nat or have you as well as the rest turned against me but I hardly think you will do that for I never will believe you would be a summer friend to any one until you write & tell me that you no longer will be a friend to me. I guess before this you have seen the piece that I sent to "Col Gerheart" which was published about me it has disgraced me forever & you know that all I have is my character & when it is gone all is gone & what am I to do now I cannot tell for Nat /

 

I can say before my "God" I am guilty of no criminal act & Lieut H. lived long enough to clear me of any criminality & did he not do it I know if he was conscious he certainly would. So Adjutant will you all if you can try & take the stain off my character for I am innocent of what has been published so wont you for heavens sake try & take the awful disgrace off of me for I am dependant on the world for a living & you know when a womans character is gone she has a hard lot in this world she is scorned by all I would not ask this of you all if I was guilty of any criminality although if I appear guilty to the world I am innocent in the sight of my "God" & it will be found out some day that is certain

 

            Nat I will tell you why it was that my husband accused Lieut H. / & me of what he did it was because we had been engaged before I was married to Johnnie & if my father was living he could tell you that he asked him for me & my father said that I could not marry until I was older so in a little while we had a misunderstanding & broke off the engagement & in a little while I married Johnnie very much against my fathers will but I loved Johnnie & married him & always have lived true to him I told him all about Lieut H. & I before I married him & I told him the reason he accused us of intamacy was on that account & he would laugh & tell me that was the advantage he had of me. but Johnnie never treated me so mean until I went out there & after we went there he never staid with me scarcely any only when he would come to bed & I asked him why it was / that he staid from me & he told me that he did not love me as he used to that we were both married too young & he wanted it seems to be rid of me & he brought suit for a divorce & brought disgrace on me by accusing me of being to intamate with the one he did but I can say that he killed "Lieut Hasehurst" when he was innocent of anything of the kind but Johnny is dead now & I forgive him for all he has ever done & said he told the officers at the Fort that I was a base woman before I was married & tried to disgrace me before I left but they all told me they did not believe it & why they all turned against me I cannot tell You or any of the rest can write to "Lexington" to Perry Beard Mich Lawerence / Fredric Bush & trace my character back from childhood & also write here to Drs Beachman Caldwell & D Montry Joe M^cRight any any of them can tell you how I have lived & how my husband treated me but Nat if you all do not take the disgrace off of me I will lead such a life that in time I will prove to the world that I am not or never was guilty of anything I have been accused of but I think you all will certainly still be friends of mine wont you write & tell me if I can still depend on you & also write if you think I am guilty of any criminality & if you do not wont you all correct what has been published & let everyone know that I am not guilty I hope you all will not think hard of me for writing & troubling you with my / letters but you know all I got is my character & if that is gone I do not know what will become of my baby & myself & Adjutant will you when you come back & you come to Louisville wont you come & see me & write & tell me evry thing spare nothing as soon as you receive this

 

                                                                                    Your friend

                                                                                                Mrs Julia Warner

 

            Direct to me 168 1^st between Green & Walnut & I will be sure to get them

 

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answerd Decr 7^th 66

Rec'd Decr 7^th 66

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